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Im sorry to all my watchers, and if i didnt get any requests done or if i forgot them, please remind me and let me know. and sorry ive been gone so long, gone and busy but not dead. i kinda trailed off once summer hit and i stopped getting on cuz the internet wont stop going in and out and ive been trying to find another job to no avail. just when i thought things might be starting to turn out ok at my current job, something else happened, and my hours got cut super drastically. went from 3 days a week to 3days every 2 weeks, and of course all this happens right when i have tuition and massive bills coming up. apparently just about everyone has issues with me for one reason or another but will never tell me to my face, or give me any warning whatsoever before they go and decide to shove me off a cliff or under the bus. And i really am sorry, i hate to complain when i know theres so many people out there who have it worse than me. I wish them only the best of luck, and all the good fortune im sure they deserve, and id want to help them out any way i could. its just
lately i feel like such a waste of space...literally. cant really seem to get a job, cant seem to make friends, i see so many amazingly brilliant artists, it just comes so naturally to them, they dont even have to try and they do amazing things. and then theres me, i struggle and i have to work for hours and days on end to be amatuer at best at just about everything. i keep trying only always to just barely make the grade, i feel like, whats the point or the purpose anymore.
i kinda lost most of my inspiration all summer except for some more scenes that ive been unable to type up because my computer is still buggy. i feel like im at the end of my rope, but i guess all i can do is try to get through upcoming classes, and keep trying to find another job. im sorry for the rant, sorry i been gone, wish i had some good news, if i had any id tell you guys first.
im just sorry
but thanks to anyone who actually reads this, your kindness does me a lot of good, and id love to return the favor just let me know
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Graduating college
I actually quit soda for over a month, that was rough. People around me were like "you look thinner!" until i got on a scale and still above 270, and still look the same in my pics.
so much for quitting, but still i do feel healthier, which is good.
Its been eons it feels like. been writing more poetry cuz its all i really have time for between school and work. looking on the bright side, i so can't wait to keep working on my first real novel project, starting a blog and facebook page for it cuz its my first real novel project that im working so hard on and hoping to publish. its chaotic but amazing so far and has been an expe
New and old, still not quite the balance
For those of you who still bother to read these, or bother to care, I thank you for your time and consideration. I wont waste my time on those who dont. There's been a great deal going on. since i am in the last few semesters of college things are getting more and more difficult. (And i thought i had a pretty good vocabulary, critical theory is gonna kick my ass) After the whole ordeal with my previous job, Despite being broke i decided to take a break, do some rethinking, researching. I felt that if i didn't have the answers to what i was going through, i wanted to try talking to someone who might. I've learned a lot over the summer and foun
back to square one again
so, sorry guys for never being around much anymore, school and work has been a rly tough bunch of crap to try and juggle, i barely passed my stupid drawing class last semester. i tried to work my school schedule around my job, only to find myself suddenly 1 step away from entirely unemployed. apparently the shop is losing money and someone thinks im a nervous clutz to keep complaining about. i mean cmon, everyone has bad days, im always nice to everybody even when im insanely stressed or pissed off. and someone must rly hate me to complain about me so bad to basically get me fired. i dont get it. school is a joke, singles ward at church is a
Friday the 13th is hell
so, finally got a new job and quit the old one that was stressing me so bad, but trouble seems to like following me at a weird distance, til suddenly its all up in my grill. this past friday the 13th, i had a strong feeling to stay home, but i had to work. my day started off with losing breakfast right after i ate it. still not sure why. i went to school classes and a rather long shift of work with an empty stomach, which i have dealt with before but this time seemed different, seemed worse, work was crazy busy, and i was pretty dizzy before it was over, but i thought, well its not so bad, wasnt even really thinking about the fact it was frid
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Good to see you back my friend.